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Title: I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Fishalicious on July 15, 2007, 09:47:58 AM
Well, not so much depressed as I am sad... I'm just... a little upset that my friends probably hate me. (I know one of them hates my guts.) They get fed up with so many things about me, so... they just naturally hate me, I guess. What bothers me is how they continue to hang around me despite such... hostility.

I'm sorry for making a topic about this, but... well, it feels like the end of the world to me... for reasons more than just my friends hating me. And... well, TDC remains. It's pretty much the only place where I can still talk without people starting to hate me for something stupid I said.

Well... unless any of you hate me.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Orpheousanew2nd on July 15, 2007, 09:51:13 AM
 You will always have friends in us, Fisk(speaking of which, I don't think I told you this yet, that is an awesome user name). TDC is always a place where you can find a safe haven.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Rev Rabies on July 15, 2007, 09:56:26 AM
i'm your friend fisk, i dont see how or why your non TDC friends would hate you
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: darkphantomime on July 15, 2007, 10:15:04 AM
Heheh, I know the feeling and I know it well. It surrounds one  like paranoia and one starts to wonder if they're really tired of oneself. Or rather, one's habits and facilitations...

Some people.... Sometimes we're antisocial and we can't really control this feeling, but it's still there. I'm not sure if I'm helping you or not so....
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Rev Rabies on July 15, 2007, 10:27:00 AM
i know the feeling too fisk, there are only two people that i am sure are my true friends, all the others i don;t believe care about me at all
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: alical on July 15, 2007, 11:44:11 AM
Aw, Fisk, we all still love you! *hugs*
If your "friends* don't realise how great you are, they're not worth it.
Remember we'll always be here for you when you need us.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Zelda Veteran on July 15, 2007, 12:25:50 PM
Thats what great about TDC. A family who will care for you when nobody else seems to. Trust me, I've been pushed to suicidal limits as far as depression goes, but somehow I managed to break through. I'll keep you in my prayers as well. Just ask them if all else fails.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: darkphantomime on July 15, 2007, 12:37:49 PM
If I don't take my meds, I have suicidal thoughts every other minute.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Gamefreak on July 15, 2007, 01:15:25 PM
That's why I keep a relatively small circle of friends.  They're the ones I trust.


But remember, you're always welcome here at Desert Colossus.  We're your friends.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: MasterKeyX on July 15, 2007, 01:26:10 PM
Welcome to the desert, Fisk, were you shan't be judged and you will always be able to find a friend and a companion. Don't worry about a thing... we're here for ya... actually, you can PM me if you'd like.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Fishalicious on July 15, 2007, 01:28:22 PM
I have a small circle of friends... four, to be exact. Three, not counting the one I know for sure hates me. (to be honest, I'm not too keen of her, either.)

I don't know, I guess I don't want friends like them, anyways. They keep trying to get me to play Guitar Hero II right-handed, or without lefty flip, because it's irritating to them to change it back to normal. (Honestly, it's irritating to flip back to lefty for me, as well!)
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Mysterious F. on July 15, 2007, 04:08:32 PM
Why do you think they hate you?
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Rev Rabies on July 15, 2007, 04:20:13 PM
Quote from: x*Twilight Zelda*x on July 15, 2007, 11:44:11 AM
Aw, Fisk, we all still love you! *hugs*
If your "friends* don't realise how great you are, they're not worth it.
Remember we'll always be here for you when you need us.

i'll do you one better*glomps fisk*

this is the desert colossus, where everyone knows your name, it isn't like them big fancy-pants zelda sites, we all know you and care about you, it's just like that show cheers
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Gamefreak on July 15, 2007, 04:27:42 PM
In the words of Daxter:

Do you need a hug?  Because we've got plenty to go around.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Twilight Wolf on July 15, 2007, 05:38:10 PM
Aww, it'll be all right. Just know that you can come here, where you'll always be welcome, and we'll aways be here for you. You'll always have friends here no matter what.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Fishalicious on July 15, 2007, 05:43:03 PM
Hm... I think they hate me because they flat out ignore me, yell at me, get irritated at how I enjoy cleaning/helping, and various other things.

And I know one of them hates me, because... well, they pretty much said it in front of me. 8)

Though I'm not much of a fan of hugs in the "real world," virtual hugs are awesome.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Commodore Axilon on July 15, 2007, 06:14:30 PM
Excuse me if this sounds forward, but why are you friends with these people in the first place?
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Twilight Wolf on July 15, 2007, 06:24:48 PM
If they're not tolerant of what you like to do, and they try to make you change to fit their ideals, they're not real friends. I've experienced this myself to a degree, actually. This kid named Dylan, who used to be my friend, always mocked my musical likes, and told me that I should "like something my age," or something to that effect. It was especially bad because I was obsessed with my music, and he knew that full well. I also had no interest at all in modern music. Plus, he had told me quite a while before that I had gotten him hooked on the Beatles, only to turn around a month or so later and say he was "bored of them." It went downhill from there, and he quite often made it clear that he didn't approve of what I liked and that I should change. He used to be fairly likeable, but by this time he had turned into a complete jerk, and not just about the music, either. I haven't seen him in almost two years now, and I'm glad to be rid of him.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Fishalicious on July 15, 2007, 06:41:29 PM
You know, that's a good question... I guess they have similar interests as me, and they're the only people who really want to talk to me...

Of course, I've never been able to keep a friend for more than a year, so...
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Twilight Wolf on July 15, 2007, 06:57:28 PM
To really be friends, you can't just like the same stuff... Liking the same stuff is how many friendships are started, but you must have tolerance of one another, and you have to be supportive of each other to really keep your friendship functioning. You seem to be doing your part, but they're not.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: MatthewThief on July 15, 2007, 07:06:54 PM
hmm Fisk.. I wouldnt be friends with people like that.. they sound mean. I never had luck finding "friends" either, thats why i just gave up. I have my online friends & my "game friends" i dont need real ones  :D
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Vaati on July 16, 2007, 07:31:40 AM
Quote from: Fisk on July 15, 2007, 09:47:58 AM
Well, not so much depressed as I am sad... I'm just... a little upset that my friends probably hate me. (I know one of them hates my guts.) They get fed up with so many things about me, so... they just naturally hate me, I guess. What bothers me is how they continue to hang around me despite such... hostility.

I'm sorry for making a topic about this, but... well, it feels like the end of the world to me... for reasons more than just my friends hating me. And... well, TDC remains. It's pretty much the only place where I can still talk without people starting to hate me for something stupid I said.

Well... unless any of you hate me.

I don't hate you, you're one of my best penpals.  ;) (I consider you a penpal)
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: alical on July 16, 2007, 11:56:47 AM
Quote
Though I'm not much of a fan of hugs in the "real world," virtual hugs are awesome.

Then we shall surround you with them!
*hugs* *hugs* *hugs*

We all know you deserve more than these people, we should all meet up and walk around as a group, and scare all Fisk's friends. That would be a laugh and a half.

We all love you more than anything Fisk!
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Vaati on July 16, 2007, 11:59:46 AM
Yeah, we're your friends!
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: MatthewThief on July 16, 2007, 12:12:08 PM
yep.. me too ^_^
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Vaati on July 16, 2007, 12:49:13 PM
(Hugs Fisk) Here. Just some random pictures I found. (http://lovecards.com/images/cards/funny/free/funny_animals_139.jpg) (http://www.scubanaked.com/images/funny06.jpg) (http://www.invaderzim.tv/images/characters/GIR_with_cupcake.jpg) Hope that'll cheer you up.  ;)
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Zelda Veteran on July 16, 2007, 12:57:15 PM
OMG! GIR!! That ALWAYS cheers me up.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Vaati on July 16, 2007, 01:00:37 PM
Totally! Gir's the most awesome character ever!
Don't worry, Fisk. You may not have many real life friends, but things will come around. Maybe a new kid will come to the school and they'll be your best friend!
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: MagmarFire on July 16, 2007, 01:06:41 PM
Gee, why people would go so far as to say that they hate you is beyond me. But yes, as Twilight Wolf said, anyone who trys to get you to change to his/her benefit hardly qualify as a friend.

You can "seek shelter" here all you want, so to speak. It really is a great place to take refuge from everyday life. Say, instead of a hug, how about a Firaga spell on the person who says hates you? :P
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Fishalicious on July 16, 2007, 01:07:54 PM
Well, she does like fire.

Though, I don't know, you guys are probably on my side too much; I'm really rather obsessive compulsive, and it gets on a lot of people's nerves, even my own.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: alical on July 16, 2007, 01:18:20 PM
Pssch, so what, doesn't make you a bad person.
I have loadsa bad habits, I dont stop talking even when I'm annoying people, and I can be overly shy. We don't care, if you're obsessive compulsive because, from what you've shown of yourself here, you're a great person.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Vaati on July 16, 2007, 01:18:41 PM
I'm not saying to change your whole identity, but maybe you could...try to be less obsessively compulsive? I don't know how hard that would be.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Sovelis on July 16, 2007, 01:32:13 PM
Vaati, I'm Obsesive Compulsive and It is VERY hard to change.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: MatthewThief on July 16, 2007, 01:38:47 PM
whats Obsesive Compulsive anyways.. when you get obsesed with stuff  :-\
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Fishalicious on July 16, 2007, 02:07:42 PM
Not quite.

Knowledge  is power! (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Obsessive-compulsive_disorder) And knowing is half the battle! (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anal_retentive)
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: MatthewThief on July 16, 2007, 02:14:15 PM
gah! so many big words! so.. its worrying allot then?
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Fishalicious on July 16, 2007, 02:17:22 PM
More like an obsession with cleaning/keeping things in a proper order... a perfectionist, if you will.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: MatthewThief on July 16, 2007, 05:13:35 PM
oh.. i know what that is now. thats still not a good enough reason for them not to like you -_-'
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Twilight Wolf on July 16, 2007, 05:20:59 PM
Being a perfectionist should have no impact on what your friends think of you. If anything, being a perfectionist can be beneficial! I know I'm a bit of one, myself, but it helps me to get exactly what I want. For example, I like to collect records, and being a perfectionist helps me to get one that's just right for my collection! I'm also really picky about how album covers look on my iPod, so I go in search of one that looks perfect. In both of these cases, I wind up happy! So it's definitely not all bad. And you know something? We don't care if you're a perfectionist or not. You're a good person, and that's all that matters.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: MagmarFire on July 16, 2007, 05:53:41 PM
Put me on the list for being obsessive compulsive, too. It doesn't make me a bad person, really. And yes, it can be beneficial. For instance, are you one who often perseveres and keeps at something? That's a good thing.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: TP Zelda on July 16, 2007, 06:58:51 PM
Quote from: Dr. Rabies on July 15, 2007, 10:27:00 AM
i know the feeling too fisk, there are only two people that i am sure are my true friends, all the others i don;t believe care about me at all

Am I one of them?  :D XDD

Fisk. Let me say this. You're a sweet person, ok? I'm not. BECAUSE I'M HYPER AND CRAZYYYYYY!!! (Hyper moment here!) So just cheer up, 'kay?

Over and out.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Fishalicious on July 18, 2007, 11:16:49 AM
Okay, it's all sorted out now; thanks for all the positive remarks, everyone. I'd be so lost without you guys... XD

The thing is, that one who hates me? She's the... "leader" of the group, if you will. The rest of us follow behind, and she's rather... jealous. She's also fairly... frightening when angered.

So, we always listen to her, and I did something to break her trust, apparently, causing her to hate me. The others are supposed to hate me too; but they really don't, so they just act indifferent. They still appreciate me as a friend, but if she found out, she'd probably hate them, too, and I don't want that. :-X

SO. it's just one person, but I don't care for them either, so it's not that bad.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: darkphantomime on July 18, 2007, 12:51:51 PM
Have them plot a rebellion to overthrow teh evil empire empress.

Viva La Revolucion!
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Bboy94 on July 18, 2007, 03:20:22 PM
Quote from: Fisk on July 15, 2007, 09:47:58 AM
Well... unless any of you hate me.
>.>


<.<



What?
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Twilight Wolf on July 19, 2007, 05:33:31 PM
Well, I'm glad you've figured it out, and I'm glad your friends don't really hate you. However, this "leader" person you speak of sounds quite controlling. People who control others through intimidation like this aren't "friends" at all. They're... well, bullies, for lack of a better term. You and your friends shouldn't let yourselves be intimidated and controlled by such a person. If she knows she can control you with intimidation, she'll just keep doing it. You all need to work together to take a stand and let her know you won't tolerate it! Let her know that if she truly wants your friendship, she needs to make some major changes, or else she can go find some new "friends." And if she hates you guys for standing up to her, she obviously doesn't want your friendship that badly. And even so, you guys still have each other, and that's a lot better than being ruled with an iron fist.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: darkphantomime on July 19, 2007, 06:05:22 PM
Viva la Revolucion!
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Mr. bubbles on July 19, 2007, 06:23:17 PM
Whaaaat Theeee
Put me on the list of being obsessive compulsive to some things. video games and model rail roading. and I also have no real friends. Most of them are freinds with me for theyre grades. They hate for being a chatter box, and not talking at all. I dont talk to any body at school. I also get bullied for how I look.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: GayleThePirate on July 19, 2007, 07:53:43 PM
I know how you feel that happened to me in 6th grade, they are not really your they just like to see you squirm, but don't worry you can always find friends here! *glomps Fisk*
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Pale Dim on July 19, 2007, 08:26:24 PM
Don't worry. I think your awesome!
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Momoko on July 19, 2007, 08:32:05 PM
me too!^^cheer up!^^ ;D
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Fishalicious on August 06, 2007, 07:03:02 PM
Alright, so... I'm not friends with the bad ones anymore.

So, I really only have one friend, though her boyfriend is my friend too. ^^

Here's what happened:

Person A is the dominant one. She controls the others with fear and manipulation. She talks about others behind their backs.
Person B is naive/gullible and, as such, was totally brainwashed by A. (she such a good friend, too...)
Person C is a follower; so she naturally agreed with A & B.
Person D dislikes conflict and is generally a nice, understanding person.
Person F is an obsessive compulsive, bipolar, twitchy mess. Used to be controlled but then said no and has been distanced since then.

D & F planned out something. At the sleepover, D announced no more sleepovers; A & F are usually feuding and the negative energy was killing her.

D leaves, and F stays behind to listen to what A,B&C say behind D's back... which they said they wouldn't do.

F left later, but when she was about to say goodbye... A slammed the door in her face and gave her a bloody nose.

F went to D's house, then discussed with each other how they reacted. They said "oh well."

A,B,&C posted a journal/blog about how angry they were at D&F. F said "you didn't even bother trying to resolve the problem... I mean, seriously... ~why can't we be friends?~~~ <3" insults were flung at F, and then a bunch of arguments followed. F & D were busy laughing at how hypocritical they were being, trying to sound smart by cursing. D backed F up later, though to no avail.

A said: "Well, you're a **, too, so it doesn't matter. :3 You're a hypocrite, and you don't understand."

F replied: "Well excuuuuuuse me, princess!"

A is now extremely pissed off at F(isk), and F couldn't care less.

F posted "<3" on A's front page.

A blocked F.

---

It feels nice to let out some of that stress... especially since they got all worked up over us saying "you guys fight too much" and... well, I don't think D and I care.

Augh, so I only have two friends now; but they're really nice and won't use me or abuse me.

Some of them want to use you~
Some of them want to be used~
Some of them want to abuse you~
Some of them want to be abused~
Who am I, to disagree?
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Twilight Wolf on August 06, 2007, 07:06:09 PM
Whoa... that must have been tense. I hope everything works out for you from now on.
Title: Re:I think I'm depressed.
Post by: Fishalicious on August 06, 2007, 07:08:28 PM
It wasn't that tense; I would say really sarcastic things and things like "well excuuuse me, princess!" after all.

Person A owes me 35 dollars, though. /: And I'm not going to be going to Realmscon and performing my skit with Link, either. I'm going, but not on the same day, and no skit for me.