Am I real...?

[MasterKeyX]

Yeah, either that, or just talk it out like I said. Talking can do wonders.

[darkphantomime]

Maybe saying 'mental breakdown' was a bit TOO dramatic. But I'll tell you I felt more insane and depressive than my usual self, and now I'm back to my depressive self again...

[Evahn]

Go out and do something. It's when you have too much time to think that you start wondering about these things. Just do something that doesn't allow you to think about anything besides the activity itself.

It works for me.

[darkphantomime]

You know what I do a lot of the time? I numb myself. LITERALLY numb myself, so I can't feel anything. I had this feeling before when I would stay up late, and it was like I was drowning and floating at the same time. It's hard to explain, but thhe thing of how I'm thinking about these is through talking with others, and seeing myself reflected in them...

The numbness sometimes has it's strange parts (As if numbing oneself wasn't strange enough)... I sometimes have tears in my eyes, but not tears as if I were crying, just tears that are there anyway, even though no emotion is experienced.

[Evahn]

That's pretty intense ... I used to numb myself emotionally and mentally, but that was mostly from sleep deprivation, among other factors.

Unless you mean you're numbing yourself physically, then that's something different ...

[MasterKeyX]

Numbing yourself, while it may work for awhile, can't possibly be healthy at all. I can't fathom how it can be harmful, but it just doesnt sound good.