The Things I do Wrong

[Howl]

Guys, this isn't a cry for attention at all. I felt like you guys need to know because you guys are like my family. What have I done wrong? Well, I've been depressed since August, and well, about a week ago I finnaly snapped and almost commited suicide. I told someone about it and now I'm on anti-depressants and recieving therapy. Please, help me get through this.

[MagmarFire]

You're kidding! Suicide!? :-[

That's terrible! By all means, if you wish to vent on here, do so! We'll listen! What's troubling you?

*moves to General Discussion because this is a serious matter*

[Howl]

If your wondering why and how....
First off, it built up, and if you've never been depressed, I'll tell you now. Being depressed is the feeling like you have no heart, you have a pulse, yet your dead, life completely stops. It hurts to, you feel unloved. Thats why. how, well, I tried overdose.
Edit: Whats bothering me? See, back in August, I learned I was being cheated on by my bf...for the 2nd time. I felt worthless, no one loved me, and I blamed myself, and it grew. I have the same feelings. I slit my wrists twice...

[Vaati]

We're with you, Howl. That's one of the reasons I choose not to have a boyfriend. Love sucks.

But you know what? We read this Greek myth in English today called "Pandora". As you may or may not know, Pandora was given a box as a gift from her father, Zeus. He told her not to open it no matter what. But curiosity took over and she opened it anyway. Only then did all the troubles of the world were let out. But there was one thing that stayed in there: Hope! I guess the moral of the story is, no matter how bad it becomes, no matter how many troubles are out there, Hope will always be left inside that box.

Cheer, up! Have a sucker. ;) Don't worry. I know how it feels to be heartbroken. Believe me! All of the guys I've liked have liked someone else...either that, or they don't exsisted (like Vaati).

But you know what I say? You go right up to that boy and b***h-slap him across his sorry cheek. Who cares if he won't like you? He deserves it! And revenge does feel good.  :)

[MagmarFire]

Though it pays to not get revenge... Sometimes, revenge can cause things to backfire and merely be an amplification of what was originally intended.

But anyway...I'm sorry about that, Howl. That guy sure has some nerve to do something like that to you, and twice, no less! What a hi'viyq tirae... >:(

Just please, don't give up! We'll try and help you get through this!

[darkphantomime]

13 eh...? What exactly are you on? I take three meds, and it's only at this point with all three that I finally get good feeling... I've been taking many meds for almost three years now too...

What else was going on?

[Gamefreak]

I'm going to be rather blunt...I apologize if this sounds wrong.

1. Why should what people think of you affect your view on life?  I've felt a lot better these past two years just going along, being me than I was when I was trying to impress people.  The only person's opinion you should care about is your own.

2. Why should one breakup change everything.  Dr. Rabies (Sorry) goes into asking a girl out as if they've been going out for a year, sets everything up, then sometimes fails and gets depressed about it.  I've only had one girlfriend (twice) and when we broke up the first time, I felt a bit bad, but then I figured that time spent feeling sorry for myself, or holding grudges wasn't time spent moving forward and making myself a better person.

[Howl]

Thanks for being blunt, your right, love sucks, and yes, 13, 16 days till I'm 14. I told my best friend what I did, and he did something that shocked me. He pulled me into a hug. It made me feel so much better. Reading these posts is making me feel like theres hope. And thanks for the sucker, it tasted like grape   :P. But anyway. I am myself, but some people think thats not good enough. Do I care about them? Nope, I couldn't give a flying f*** about them. But it's the people I love, their opinion matters to me. And, can I make this clear, I've been cheated on twice by two different guys. Talk about tough love eh?  I don't want to tell the story of how that happened, its waaaaaaaaay too long.

[Vaati]

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind" -Dr. Suess

^That's one of my favorite quotes. It helpd me alot when I was in elementary school and kids would make fun of me because I had an overbite. But I had braces, and now I have them off and my teeth are perfectly straight.

[alical]

You Poor thing.
That guy sucks, you're better off without him.

I wish I could say something to make you feel better, so if you ever need to talk, or just need to be listened to, I'm here. Stay Strong!

[Howl]

Thank you guys, believe me, this makes me feel like the ton that's been on my shoulders for the past few months, it feels like some has been lifted off. I would also like to say that I'll be posting everyday, except for fridays and saturdays, and maybe sundays (wow raiding days lol) I'll be glad to help you guys in anyway I can, just PM me if you need me.  :)

[MagmarFire]

Glad to hear that some weight has been lifted off of your shoulders. Sounds like things are improving slightly! ;)

But just remember that if you're ever in a pinch again, you may speak up here. It's a great remedy, really.

[Howl]

Good to know, Love you guys!

[Vaati]

Give us all a hug!

[Howl]

*glomps all*