Relationships Topic

[darkphantomime]

Someone should invent a meter that tells you when you're worrying too much about something. I know I have this problem as well.

[DW]

Someone should invent a meter that tells you when you're worrying too much about something. I know I have this problem as well.

What's getting at me is that I didn't used to do this. I think it may be because I've been around my stepdad and his depression too much. I remember working with him over the summer, our entire conversation consisted of how much the world and everything in it sucked, and how everything was going down the toilet. He'd really unnerve me. I've been trying to talk to him about it though. Problem is that our house is packed with people and it's hard to find some privacy. Plus he's not all that willing to listen. Last time I brought it up I was kicked out of the house :/

*sigh* All I know is that if it's going to change me enough to make me lose someone like her, I need to get it sorted out.

[darkphantomime]

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He kicked you out of the house?

[DW]

...

He kicked you out of the house?

Yes, I had to stay at Scotty's for a few days.

Anyways, that's off topic.

[darkphantomime]

Commenting on our relationships with anyone, including step-dads would be on topic for a thread labeled 'relationships topic'.

I know my stepdad has threatened me with the same several times before, as I'm now an adult, he is under no obligation to have me stay.

[DW]

Commenting on our relationships with anyone, including step-dads would be on topic for a thread labeled 'relationships topic'.

I know my stepdad has threatened me with the same several times before, as I'm now an adult, he is under no obligation to have me stay.

Look, I don't want to discuss this.

I wonder if it's still worth trying to fix things. Before I wanted to fix them but thought that if I took the time she would become disinterested and find someone else, and then it would be pointless. Well, she's found someone else now, so...meh. I wonder if it would've made a difference?

[darkphantomime]

Do you want to improve the world?
I don't think it can be done.

The world is sacred
it can't be improved.
If you tamper with it, you'll ruin it.
If you treat it like an object, you 'll lose it.

There is a time for being ahead,
a time for being behind;
a time for being in motion,
a time for being at rest;
a time for being vigorous,
a time for being exhausted;
a time for being safe,
a time for being in danger.

The master sees things as they are
without trying trying to control them
She lets them go their own way,
and resides at the center of the circle.

- Tao te ching

[DW]

Maybe that's the problem? I mean, ever since the first thing went wrong, I've felt like I had to make it up to her. Kept thinking that if I worked at it hard enough, I could fix it.

[darkphantomime]

Yeah, my advice is to just... stop. Just let things go, don't interfere or try to 'fix things'. Just let things go naturally and things will work out.

[DW]

Right. She's happy with the new guy, I'm glad for her. I may not mean even as much as a friend to her now, I'll just have to accept it. I made a mistake. I need to take care of my own life. I want her in it, but that may not be possible anymore.

[darkphantomime]

Just relax. Relationships can take a lot of stress. You just need to relax, calm down.

[DW]

I am relaxed, actually. I'm not upset about her as much as I am about myself not being...myself? This isn't my personality in the slightest. I always just took things as they came and never got stressed about it :/ These have just not been a good few months for me lately. Lots of stuff going on. Bri just happened to get caught in the crossfire...That's what I feel worst about, I guess. She didn't need any of this to happen to her. But honestly, I'm fine. It's kinda odd, but now that she has someone else that makes her happy, I'm not afraid of losing her so I've been able to focus on my own stuff.

[Fishalicious]

To bring a little bit of lightheartedness into the conversation, Justin bought me the Silent Hill Homecoming guide. It's really nice. And my friend said "lol you're taller than her; you two would look good together" and it just... made everything really awkward.


To go on with the melancholy conversation, I'm probably going to be flip-flopping on whether or not I like him. I don't.... feel anything for him romantically, but that's not all that different than usual. I think that's what bugs me the most- I don't know if I like him or not.

[darkphantomime]

I think maybe your experiences have created some numbness in that area. Of trust, love, relationships...

[Zelda Veteran]

Trust is always the first thing to go.
I know Shika is strong, so I'm sure he'll be handling this much better than I did. I was P.W.'d, no joke.

So anyways, I have some awesome news.

My ex is a wreck.

My girlfriend and a few of my friends who were hanging with her at the time ran into my ex at What-a-Burger the other night. She's dating Josh now, the same one on my brawl hit-list. My girlfriend asked why he was dating her, and his response was "I dunno... I don't even really like her." lmao. I also heard from all the people there that:

Her face was majorly pitted.
Her hair was all ratty.
She was wearing the sluttiest dress they'd ever seen-

Chock another one up for ol' ZV.
My victories are piling up.
Holy CRAP, I'm a creep >.>